have you ever looked in the mirror and didnt recognize the person staring back. Not because of some emotional baggage. But because the person in the mirror looks like someone thats stepped threw to Wonderland.
When I become a Mother, it was one of the happiest days of my life. But like all moms know, it changes your life in a way that words cant come close to describe. Dont get me wrong, i love and adore being a mom and wouldnt change it for the world. But sometimes i wish i could pause the 'mommy life' and transport back in time where things were less complicated or easier for that matter.
To me, my life feels like i have stepped threw the glass to wonderland. When looking in the mirror i find that my reflection doesnt look like me. I avoid staring into a reflective surface too long, or taking pictures that have me blatantly in the picture, because i dont like my 'wonderland self'. Its not like im nagging because i have a wrinkle here or a blemish there. its like my bones have shifted to form this different person. I can see the difference in pictures from before to after. I dont know if maybe my sub-conscience is just screwing with my mind or that my look has really changed.
But my whole point other then the fact that i dont like my "new" look, is that sometimes your life changes so dramatically that its like stepping threw to wonderland. But sometimes you have to sit down with the mad hatter and the march hare and have a cup of tea and enjoy the ride..
My last question for you. What happens when you dont want the tea?
Until later...
