There comes a time in everyone's life where it just sucks. Plain and simple theres no happy or silver lining to it. Where do you go? well, now what?
Do you give up your desires for the things maybe more important or do you be selfish and say hell no.
I in my short little life havent figured it out yet. That wisdom has not been imparted to me yet, maybe because my realitives want me to learn on my own.LOL. who knows. Maybe god is teaching me a lesson. When i am facing it, i am stuck between a rock and a hard place, im at a fork and have nowhere to turn. Sometimes i wish my mommy was still making the desicions for me it was SOO much easier, Life was easier when your biggest hurt was a skinned body part, not so much a broken heart.
Knowing that my next step in life will inevidably break my heart, makes me just want to stick my head in the sand and stand with my ass in the air and say KISS IT! im staying PUT! But my entire life i was no where near cowardness, i was the one saying bring it on! now..well not so much..God has a way of working in those emotions and attitudes you were lacking...like my willingness to compromise.
I am an impatient person, i know it and so does everyone else! I wish i could have god on speed dial and say hey i need the details about whats coming next if i make this decision or that one. Kinda like those choose your own adventure books, except when you dont like your adventure you can turn back the page. I hated those books. You know the saying the light at the end of the tunnel? yah, well if i could i would drive to the end see whats in the light and then drive all the way back to take the journey, that is if i liked the result. if not, i would park my car and say you all can suck it. not uh. no why, no how. Of course im sure god would get me to move eventually. He always does. Hes funny like that, and im sure all of my eufamisims give him quite the amount of laughter.
Now that im done moaning and groaning for the most part. What do you do?
Im not so sure yet..better luck next time
Till then.
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